Im not always who i seem to be. i have my past, but i also have my future, This life has a reason, and thats why what happens tomorrow is always unexpected.
Stressed.
I know i want this. I know this is what i want for my future in life.
MUSIC. The one thing i get that gets me. The one thing i truly love. I want to spend my life being a vocalist. I need to make this happen. I need a song. And i need one soon, so i can sing it for a demo. GAH, decisions!
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[Flash 9 is required to listen to audio.]Afraid.
Getting attached to someone is one thing… being obsessed is another..
You and i fell for each other. Plain and simple. You Loved Me. I Loved you. What happened? I grew up, and thought i knew better. We were together for 7 months hoping it’d be forever. We’ve been through some intense struggles. I lost you and wanted you back. Willingly, you came back. I was so happy, so grateful. You make me smile, and you make me laugh. You always had a way of knowing when something was wrong. Our relationship was so strong it was like we had formed telepathy between us. One day i was convinced you weren’t good enough. I broke things off. And I live with the guilt and pain everyday. I know i hurt you. You became very depressed. You were told things that are untrue and you still choose to believe them over what i have to say. In April it would’ve been three years. I know you hate me and you think i led you on. Believe what you may, but i know how i feel. You still give me butterflies to this day. Its hard to convince myself that i hate you. Knowing you were my first love, knowing deep down that you still mean that much to me to this day. We don’t even talk anymore. i get dirty looks from you every single day. when people bring you up i have to act like i don’t even acknowledge your existence. You are a big part of me.. Maybe if i wasn’t afraid of all the drama… maybe if i wasn’t afraid of all the rumors.. Maybe if we weren’t afraid of our consequences like we used to be, we would still be the way we were. Being afraid ruins everything though because we are in high school where everyone judges each other… What would happen if we forgot about everyone and came back to our past? Revisited the times that are forever with us? What if we weren’t afraid?
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I Am A Haunted Person.
Our past is filled with dispair and regrets, and i know that i can make it through thanks to you.
Those words I’ve said too many times to too many people. My trust is slowly starting to disappear. I’m losing contact with myself and i don’t even know who i am anymore. I’ve had some hurtful words said towards me and i don’t really know why. people do unexplainable things for unexplainable reasons. i always think i find someone worth my time, yet i haven’t kept a single close friend for more that 10 months. My past eats me alive everyday with each regret I’ve made. yet i still find a reason to be here . people need me in there lives because i help them, yet i cant help myself. I’m a haunted person in desperate need to release my ghosts to someone who will actually listen.
